The Sepper Family

day 252…Katie Lynn was here and I was no longer pregnant.  There was such a rush of emotions.  I remember her popping out and the Doctor having to say it twice that it was a girl before I realized that I had a daughter.  I remember telling my friends that we had our baby and it was a girl.  I remember the reaction…WHAT? Seriously? You are joking!

The day after, my precious baby was here and she was in NICU with a tube up her nose.  My thoughts, hard to hear them because they were going a million miles a minute.  All I could think about was, how do I fix her, how can I help her, what do I do?

280…280 days was the mark, our count to our baby.  Our due date was December 4th and it was November 6th and I was no longer pregnant.  Most first time moms carry for 280 days, 40 weeks or 9 months and then some.  This was not the case for me.  As we went to visit Katie Lynn, my thoughts were “if I had carried her longer, she would have been okay” I felt like I had failed her.

All I could think was “my goal was 37 weeks(257 days), full term and everything would be fine” 5 days short, 5 days is such a short time.  Looking back at this now, all I can think about is “Thank God she came when she did, that she was early, that she had her own time frame and that she is so strong willed”

Katie Lynn has taught me so much and I don’t know what I would do without her. 

Over the past 8 months I have met a lot of people through friends and have heard other stories from other mothers of their struggles and successes.  Everytime I hear or read a story of others, it makes me think.  I am so truly blessed and amazed at the hand of God.  He took care of my family and he healed my baby girl.  As many of you know, our first diagnoses was 1825 days until Katie Lynn could hope to be “normal”.  God healed her in 50 days. 

At day 252, when I should have still been pregnant, I did not know what the future held and now at day 252 of Katie Lynn’s life in our world, I still do not know what the future holds but I know for sure that God is there and will guide us every step of the way. 

My emotions today are much different than my emotions were just 252 days ago, today I have a beautiful healthy baby girl who makes me smile just looking at her.  I can’t imagine life without her and I never knew how much I could love her.  Katie Lynn is a miracle and she has taught me so much. 

May God Bless you and be with you every step of the way.  We may not always see his plan or what he is trying to teach us but if we listen and follow it will work out.  There is always a reason for everything, it just takes time to realize why certain things happen.  It may take a day, a month, a year or a life time to realize why certain things happen in your life.